Expectations

Time really is my friend. When I think of the mess I could have made of things with Ken had we actually met up last weekend I just shudder. My emotions were running so high that I'm sure he would have thought I had lost my mind completely. Or worse, that I was a psycho queen that he must avoid at all cost. This week has really allowed me to take some deep breaths and realize that I need keep Friday in perspective. I'm having dinner with a nice guy I haven't seen in at least a year. This guy probably has a bit of an attitude about me since I've been such an ass in the past.

That's all Friday is. If things go well then great! I'll plan more time with him and look at moving the relationship along. So, relax and breath deep. Setting unreasonable expectations for our date will make me too nervous to have fun and just be myself. And if we are going to have more than friendship then it's the real me he's going to have to see, not the stressed out and desperate me that I was last weekend.

Ok, one other possibility here that I need to keep in mind. There is a possibility that he has met someone and is dating again. He is busy on the weekends. And although his online journal doesn't say anything about meeting someone, his online journal doesn't say much about anything. :-) So, again, keeping this date in perspective is the only sane choice.